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is this a diary or a newsletter?
2004-10-23 | 11:26 p.m.

I really need to be more consistent about writing here. A diary thatís only updated once a month is really more of a newsletter than a diary.

In my defense, however, itís been one hell of a busy month.

I moved to Prescott. I bought a new bed. I got my cable hooked up. I complained that my internet access wasnít yet hooked up. I started my new job. I met a lot of new people. I tried really hard to remember all their names. I forgot more names than I remembered. I half-way convinced myself that Iíll be able to do this job. I went back to Phoenix for a weekís worth of training. I learned a lot. The biggest thing I learned is that I have a hell of a lot more to learn. I got sick. I got better.

See? I told you Iíve been busy.

Ok. Letís break all that down.

The move: It went relatively smoothly. I like my apartment. Itís small, but it works. At least for the time being. After sleeping on the floor for a week, my bed was delivered and my apartment started to feel ďlivable.Ē The cable was hooked up quickly, but I didnít have internet access until today. But Iím not going to complain too much, since I now have high-speed, wireless internet access. So Iím happy.

The job: I think I can. I think I can. I think I can. This will be my mantra until I actually ďcan.Ē Iíve been in Phoenix for the past week for basic prosecutorial training. Half way through the first day I started thinking, oh shit, I have no idea what Iím doing. By the second day I was thinking, Iím never going to be able to do this. The training really only served to highlight how much I didnít know. But, nevertheless, Iíve managed to talk myself back from the edge of panic. I realize that I donít know what the hell Iím doing. But I also know that I can learn. And I can learn quickly. Iím going to have to learn quickly. Iím scheduled in justice court on Monday morning. My plan? Iím going to fake it. Iím hoping that by working hard, studying long, asking questions, and faking the rest, Iíll be able to achieve some degree of competence before I commit prosecutorial misconduct. I sure as hell hope Iím right.

The sick part: Letís just say that the toilet and I were one for a few days. No matter. Iím feeling better.

So, now Iím back in Prescott. Iím still getting used to the solitude. Iím enjoying the chilly fall weather. Iím liking this wireless internet access. Iím thinking that I should get to bed soon. Iím trying hard not to worry about being in court Monday morning. And Iím going to work on updating more regularly.

Listening To: CNN
Reading: my DUI handbook
Feeling: slightly anxious

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